The crazy thing about fate is that even if it was 1 yrs, 2 yrs, half a decade, or even 10yrs, if you are fated to be with somebody, u cant hide/run away from it.
After so long, it seems fate stopped by and gave me another chance. But fate is not a human being, its the middleman that brings 2 people together. And if one is willing and the other is unwilling, its just a no brainer.
Im tired of running round and round in circles. In fact, im willing to stick with her for life now. Im tired of chasing and running and hiding, did i not say that?
Its kinda stupid but after 2yrs, im still dreaming about u. I dont know why but i still do. and im tired of dreaming when its not happening in real life. And the retarded thing is it was I who initiated the end, back then, on that uneventful xmas eve night.
But then again, if it was Over, why did fate step in again, for real this time? Screwing with my mind....
I turned a new leaf, ready to be serious now, tired of games, tired of playing. For two years, there's been no other which is amazing cos this is the first time in my life that this is happening.
But even so, her doors have closed on me, already, i suppose.. Can call it karma or a lesson learned. Unless a miracle happens?
Unless fate is telling me the reason why she is the woman of my dreams and that maybe i should wake up and not give up on searching for the right one? I dont know, it will take quite a while for me to deliberate(think/consider/ponder) on.
Now is the final turning point in my life, i dont think i have much more youth and years left to waste on people who dont matter to me so i have to think carefully.
I know Who i want now; the woman of my dreams. My mind and heart are clearer than ever before.
Fate has a funny way of fucking and screwing people's lives up but as they say, if it aint fated, then even if u want it to happen, it never will. But its the complete opposite for me, after two yrs, fate shows up again+dreams during these two years. Now if that aint Fate, i dont know what is.