♥ Friday, July 03, 2009
||You reap what you sow||
Once the seed is cast, no matter it be a promise of a bad stalk or a good stalk that will emerge out of it, it will still grow and continue to mature. Hopefully it matures in a way that is in the best interest of the seed caster.
:)
i bleed; therefore i am {22:28}
♥ Friday, June 26, 2009
||Michael Jackson is Dead :(||
Just heard the news from bunny and read the news online that he passed away at 50yrs of age. Really sad to hear that. He was my first idol when I was very young and hope his songs live on..
R.I.P.
Michael Jackson
Labels: michael jackson, music, rip
i bleed; therefore i am {17:27}
♥ Sunday, June 21, 2009
||Mental Meltdown Me-sery||
Pressured to the max almost to my breaking point.
Need to break free; or just lose myself, out of control, go insane.
There is only so much one can take and im getting really emotional lately. I don't know why but I am slowly losing it I guess.. So many problems lately i need to get myself and my life back on track..
All along, there was nobody I could confide in but at the most insane and intense meltdown ever, I was very glad that this time round, when i look at my phone filled with people who are busy with their own lives, I found someone who could comfort me, for once, right on the spot.. It was bunny.. And it was then that I truly did not feel so Alone anymore..cos when I looked at my phone then, i would see smses filled with positive comforts for me, trying to cheer me up and get me back on my two feet.
I can't do things right anymore, just that i succumb more and more to the pressure and become even more confused and Lost.
You know sometimes on TV you see someone looking lost and wanders around and walks without a place in mind, totally engrossed by the days' happenings and deep in thought?
Then suddenly, he/she walks across the road and forgets where he/she is, or even noticing the oncoming traffic moving about and BHAM! Gets knocked down by a vehicle..
One of these days, Im really afraid I wont be able to take my mind off and might accidentally cause my own death instead.. I was walking along the overhead bridge today to meet bunny up.. And I was just like a mindless zombie ya know? Walking forwards..went up the overhead bridge.. saw the number of cars below.. then, was thinking really crazy thoughts like if i jumped down and be run over by the cars below, would that end all my Miseries? Would that settle all my problems? No, i guess not..
Quite a long time ago, I buckled under the pressure and I visioned myself jumping down from where I stayed at but it was a totally irrational thought and the feeling in me was so strong, the desire to end it all was overpowering me..
I don't know how much more I can take to wait to see my life pull through the right way.
When will Happy days come again? Or is Misery gonna plague me for life?
:(
Labels: bad days, karma, stuff
i bleed; therefore i am {23:14}
♥ Thursday, May 28, 2009
||YAY! I did well for my exam!||
Yayyyyyyyy yup i scored really well for my makeup exam! I think got people score higher than me but im okay! My marks were 82.5% im so happy! Im glad I studied real hard and managed to do finish the makeup and all the looks for photography day.
Now waiting for photos and dip cert to be collected wheee!!!!
Labels: makeup
i bleed; therefore i am {23:28}
♥ Tuesday, May 26, 2009
||You play your below, take Ice for my Milo?!!?!||
Have a look at this video the lyrics are so funny!
However, I feel, its much better than Phua Chu Kang SARS mtv song hahaha!
Now school has ended totally.. Nothing to do le thinking what else I might wana do these days. Usually, I should be in school on weekdays but now that I've graduated already, it feels weird to not have to wake up so early to get ready for school.
Now all that Im awaiting are the Portfolio photos and my Cert! Yea! Im so happy I've finally finished school but it felt so short.. If only it could drag longer cos school was indeed a whole load of fun fun fun, everyday!
All the chit chatting with different age groups all studying the same thing and yes we all communicated well with each other which makes me wana go join a new class course just so I have something to do and learn new things, make new friends but that's a silly idea.
Money don't fall from the sky.
:)
Im wondering when will I have the time to resize pictures and post in my blog but that will have to take some time.. >.<
Oh and bunny's gonna go on cruise tmr so I asked her to sneaked in some of the 'famous' cheese crackers for me to try hahaha She's gonna be behaving like a auntie there swiping all the food for me :P I just hope they don't spoil by the time she returns hee oh and she's heading to kuala lumpur, handed her a long list of stuff to get for me yayyyyyy!!!! The shopping had better be good!
:D
i bleed; therefore i am {23:41}
♥ Thursday, May 21, 2009
||Let's blog about something Today||
So everything turned out well at the end but I hate that I couldn't focus my thoughts today while having the model having taken her time down from one end of singapore, to the other end of singapore just so I can practise makeup on her..
Bunny was there too and she went off printing stuffs for me. This morning was a mess and cos of that, by the end of the day, I felt really exhausted and feel like im falling sick anytime now. I just felt real weak by the end of the day.
Tomorrow is another big thing. Gonna hang out with the sch mates to get props and costumes. Real reason why im going, is that I HAVE NO CLUE as to what I want to achieve on makeup day.
I have so many ideas in my head but once I work on a Real model, my mind just goes BLANK. Im serious. Just blank, empty. But on paper I can really work something out.. OMG. Im gonna fail man.. :( My photoshoot's gonna suck real bad..
Cos Im so stressed out now and can't even have a peace of mind (just feel like throwing my phone away cos every few mins it will ring, informing me of new smses or calls...) Next is, my money is slowly...diminishing.... :( Sure H helped me out but I feel bad! H is very old already and yet in times of crisis like these, H is actually digging out through her money stash just to help me a bit. How can I let H down like that if I fail to succeed well?
To think H specially boiled some tonic for me and I drank some but I feel really moody still that I put the rest in the fridge. Later morning time I better wakeup and drink to the energising tonic H specially brewed for me. And I better get going to bathe and wake up early later.
MY mind is in a whirlpool now flooded in getting ideas for my portfolio for my models.
I think I just got too much to handle lately and with people too cos they all seem to come all at one go.
Wait.
Stop.
I need a Breather.
Okay.
Im Ready.
Throw me back in, Im ready whatever comes what may.
p.s. Im craving for steamboat again. Die. How to lose extra weight like that? 0_0"
i bleed; therefore i am {00:23}
♥ Wednesday, May 20, 2009
||How many hours does it take to waste before finally getting down to what Im supposed to be doing today?||
Let's see.
Im supposed to leave house by 10am to run my errands and get my brush cleaners and print stuff all the way till 130pm. Hopefully latest by 2pm, where my model is coming in for me to practise on her.
However, what happened today was totally the opposite. Sure I got things done, even got a new fan to replace my old spoilt one and now its 3pm. No one's here yet and Im already home waiting for them. Everything's just so crammed today and Im feeling unwell. Fainting from hunger. In need of my TOM YAM BEE HOON to calm my nerves and destress me.
I am so stressed and running out of time now. My model has to go off at 6pm, leaving me with only 2hrs (max) to do makeup for her. Die.
So how much time i've wasted so far the whole day?
From 10am to 3pm, that's a jolly good 5hrs wasted.
And the time's still wasting. Im gonna go have my tomyam beehoon now. Hope I don't pull anyone's moods down later..
i bleed; therefore i am {15:08}
♥
||I can be whoever I choose to be and be whatever I want to be||
p.s. I love Shisha for the Smoke effect! Comes out nice in photos! :)
Quote of the Day
The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.
- Eleanor Roosevelt
This quote I agree.
If I want something, I gotta reach out and grab it and work hard towards it.
If I want to do well, I better jolly well do a good job out of it.
Part 1 of Exam has just ended but it is not over yet!
Part 2 is on this Saturday!
Die, so many things to prepare and people to prepare for on that day.
Worst thing is, ppl last minute back out on me leaving me frantically searching for backup models.
In the end, I know, all will go well.
All the best to everyone!!!!!!
Hope we get our models and props and costumes on time!
Labels: beauty, makeup, mood photography, shisha, stuff
i bleed; therefore i am {01:16}
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